April 2011
March 2011
every time I watch it, I’m just in awe
oh my god I haven’t felt like this in about 2 years right before I OD’d. I am definitely gonna be doin my old combo of weed and lots of pills : ]
fuuuuuck yes! I <3 pills
Tonights the first time in years ive taken a xannex and its amazing! Time to start poppin those again!!!!
The Giraffe moves with his herd & if u dont get it youll never understand
“I used to get se frustraded when i wasn’t doing well in my games that I’d cuzz and yell that I was quitting and I’d say shit like I suck so bad. I don’t even know why I play. I’m not good enough for anything and when I get the opportunity to show off I fuck up. I think life plays mind games with you in everything you excel at, and its your subconscious just pushing yourself to be better. Frustration is an amazing emotion and like any other intimate emotion, every being on earth experiences it. Which is weird. But don’t let it get you down. Somedays everything isn’t as easy as you would like it to be.” - Carl Clarice Casillas.
Never have better words of explanation made so much sense. She always knows exactly what’s going on.
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year after year running around on the same old ground, what have we found? the same old fears…wish you were here.
and discouraged
and sad
and alone
and confused
and I don’t know where to go next.
I feel like its just going to be like “ok” music made by andy price…like I don’t know where to go, I don’t know what to do, I don’t have a “new sound”, and everything I force out just sounds like utter bullshit.
I fucking hate EVERYTHING I make. Seriously can’t even stand listening to my own shit. I fucking hate that I don’t know enough music. I don’t know how to structure well enough. I hate that all my songs are intro, half the hook, verse, chorus, verse, chorus, verse chorus, outro (if theres one)
I REALLY hate that I have no one musically to work with…being on my own sucks. I wish I was schizophrenic so i could at least have another opinion on everything. But instead I just get a bunch of people saying “oh its good.” THE FUCK DOES THAT EVEN MEAN!?
SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT IM DOING WRONG GOD DAMNIT!
When Buddha laughs and Jesus weeps and it turns out God is gay
‘Cause Angels and Messiahs, love can come in many forms
In the hallways of your projects or the fat girl in your dorm
And when you finally take the time to see what they’re about
Perhaps you find them lonely or their wisdom trips you out
Maybe you’ll find the spot where cycles end
You’re back where you began
But come this time around, you’ll have someone to hold your hand
Who prays for you, who is there for you, who sends you love and light
Exposes you to parts of you that you once tried to fight
I think I’m going to dedicate tomorrow to doing so!
Finally listening to F# A# Infinity album and I’m just blown away!
ADD ME!
I need it!
You have to continuously do things people tell you not to.
Look up sun rah the composer from outterspace!